View from my balcony of setup in Gan Sacher |
My maternal grandparents moved out of the country long before I was born so I rarely saw or heard from them as a kid. One month-long visit when I was about 8 years old was the most extended time I'd ever spent with them. She was a sick women from the time my mother was a little girl and she would constantly repeat herself, so unfortunately I didn't really appreciate talking with her the only chance I had. My most vivid memory is when I found her bra in my room (I had graciously allowed them to sleep there during their visit... no wait, who am I kidding - did I even have a choice?) and noticed it looked sort of different than those I had seen in the store or my mother's room. Because she had a single mastectomy without having reconstructive surgery, she had to buy bras custom-made with one cup fully padded to even out her destructed figure. Although I was too young to actually understand the severity of the situation, I must have realized its intensity because the image has been imprinted in my mind ever since.
During the summer of my freshman year of college, one of my best friend's mother, C, was diagnosed with breast cancer. This is a friend I'd known since kindergarten; I'd spent many a weekends (and school nights) by her house for almost 15 years, and because my parents moved away when I was in college, she truly became like a second mother to me. This diagnosis was almost the hardest thing I'd ever had to bare. It wasn't just that my best friend's mother had cancer, it was one of the first situations I'd ever been confronted with in which I was totally lost. I used to pride myself in my ability to help out my friends no matter what the issue; if nothing else, I was always able to at least talk them through it. This time was different. I couldn't say anything, I was having trouble even thinking about it, I became totally numb - I was the worst friend that summer at the time I was needed the most. Perhaps her diagnosis struck a chord somewhere I had previously blocked off. After all, my grandmother had breast cancer, so in addition to all of the other statistics against me, I was about 15% more likely to get it myself.
Thank God - though if you knew what an immensely smart, strong and kind person C is, you'd doubt God had anything to do with it - she made it through what was likely the hardest time of her life. (I would like to just add that my description is purposely short so as not to lose the reader's interest, but I fail to do her kindness, strength and intelligence enough justice - I just wouldn't have enough writing space.)
So there I was, 3 months ago, making the decision to start running. I had a few things in mind:
- Primary Goal: Don't make a fool of yourself
- Unrealistic Goal If This Thing Pans Out: Participate in a triathlon (haha yea right)
- Realistic Goal If This Thing Pans Out: Participate in a Komen Race for the Cure
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